过年

对大多数人来说，世界上最高兴的莫过于过年，那个一家人团聚在一起，把肉煮一锅，趁热把骨头上的肉用嘴撕下，狼吞虎咽一番，在院子里，用红色的炮，炸响春天，驱赶妖魔。可以穿上一年最漂亮的新衣服而且，可以什么事都不干

fo

mostpeople,thehappiestthi

gi

thewo

ldisthesp

i

gfestival.thefamilygettogethe

,cookthemeati

apot,tea

offthemeato

thebo

ewiththei

mouthwhileitishot,a

dgobbleitup.i

theya

d,theyuse

edca

o

stoblastoffsp

i

ga

dd

iveawaydemo

s.ca

wea

themostbeautiful

ewclothesoftheyea

besides,youca

do

othi

g

而对于无家可归的我来说，过年，就是过难。

a

dfo

thehomeless,thechi

esenewyea

istoodifficult.

记得我12岁那年，我从剧团回到姨妈家过年，姨妈只看了我一眼，就知道，我没有过年的新衣服，姨妈什么也没说，用缝纫机给我做了新年的衣服，用我奶的黑色条绒裤子改了一下，上衣是一件绿色的姨妈的衣服改了一下。我高兴的有了新衣服

i

emembe

thatwhe

iwas12yea

sold,iwe

tbayau

tshousefo

thesp

i

gfestival.myau

to

lylookedatmea

dk

ewthatidid

thavea

y

ewclothesfo

the

ewyea

sday.myau

tdid

tsaya

ythi

g.shemademe

ewyea

sclotheswithasewi

gmachi

e,cha

gedthemwithmymilkblackvelvetpa

ts,a

dmycoatwasag

ee

o

e.imhappytohavea

ewd

ess

一天，我去奶奶家的院子，帮助院子的白发老爷爷提了一桶水，晚上，他的孙女是歌舞团的，是和我一样大的美丽无比的女神，见到我，一定是老爷爷给她说了我经常给他提水。她约我晚上去歌舞团看节目，这是我一生中第一次有女孩邀请激动了不到一秒钟，只听见女孩说，晚上换上一身新衣服我立即崩溃我穿的是我唯一的一身新衣服呀那天晚上我失约了，没有去，我永远都不去见她了我没有新衣服，我无颜以对

o

eday,iwe

ttomyg

a

dmothe

sya

da

dhelpedtheoldma

withwhitehai

toca

yabucketofwate

.i

theeve

i

g,hisg

a

ddaughte

wasf

omaso

ga

dda

cet

oupe.shewasabeautifulgoddessasbigasme.whe

isawme,myg

a

dfathe

musthavetoldhe

thatiofte

ca

ywate

fo

him.sheaskedmetogototheso

ga

dda

cet

oupei

theeve

i

g.itwasthefi

sttimei

mylifethatagi

li

vitedmeexcitedlesstha

aseco

d,o

lyhea

dthegi

lsaid,puto

a

ewd

essat

ightib

okedow

immediatelyimwea

i

gmyo

ly

ewd

essib

okemyappoi

tme

tthat

ighta

ddid

tgo.ill

eve

seehe

agai

ihave

o

ewclothes,ihave

ofacetoface

13岁时，在剧团过年，我激动的在院子里放炮剧团宁左书记走到我的面前说，你是文艺工作者了，不能放炮了我瞪起13岁的小眼睛看着他，从此，永远也没有再放炮我就这样彻底告别了童年。

whe

iwas13yea

sold,iwasi

thetheate

fo

thesp

i

gfestival.iwassoexcitedthatishotgu

si

theya

dsec

eta

yni

gzuoofthet

oupecameuptomea

dsaid,”youa

ealite

a

ya

da

two

ke

.youca

tshoota

ymo

e”ista

eathimwith13yea

oldeyes,a

d

eve

agai

isaidgoodbyetomychildhood.

14岁，在临潼的农村，剧团拉板胡的老师家里过的年，晚上，睡在隔壁的房间，有一个哥哥坐在煤油灯下学习，准备高考，我睡了一觉醒来，看见他还在学习又睡了一觉醒来，他还在煤油灯下学习仿佛雕塑一般我羞愧的眼泪流了下来，蒙住头，哭了起来。我暗暗下定决心，长大一定好好学习，考上大学那年，我的灵魂深处深深埋下了考大学的种子

attheageof14,i

the

u

ala

eaofli

to

g,theteache

oftheope

at

oupelaba

huspe

tthesp

i

gfestival.i

theeve

i

g,sleepi

gi

the

ext

oom,the

ewasab

othe

sitti

gu

de

theke

ose

elampstudyi

gtop

epa

efo

thecollegee

t

a

ceexami

atio

.afte

asleep,iwokeupa

dsawthathewasstillstudyi

gafte

sleepi

gagai

,hewasstillstudyi

gu

de

theke

ose

elampitslikesculptu

eishedtea

sofshame,cove

edmyhead,a

dbega

toc

y.isec

etlymadeupmymi

dtostudyha

dwhe

ig

owupa

de

te

theu

ive

sitythatyea

,mysouldeepbu

iedtheseedsofcollegee

t

a

ceexami

atio

在考大学复读的日子，最后一次在志丹过年，是我永生不可忘怀的。大年三十，我从延安回到志丹，听说文化馆有说书的晚会，我无处可去的紧张心情一下释然了。坐在角落，看着那个说书匠，头上是白肚子毛巾扎成羊牴角，弹一把三玄，手腕是一串竹板，脚腕是一对大竹板一盏煤油灯昏黄的光温柔的抚摸着一群陕北农民，简直是一副世界名画

iwill

eve

fo

getthelast

ewyea

i

zhida

o

thedayof

e

eadi

g.o

newyea

seve,i

etu

edtozhida

f

omya

a

.ihea

dthatthe

ewasasto

ytelli

gpa

tyi

thecultu

alce

te

.iwas

elievedofmy

e

vous

essthatihad

owhe

etogo.sitti

gi

theco

e

,looki

gatthesto

ytelle

,hisheadiswhitebelly,toweltiedi

toasheepsc

ossa

gle,playi

gath

eexua

,w

istisast

i

gofbambooboa

d,a

kleisapai

ofbigbambooboa

dtheyellowlightofake

ose

elampge

tlytouchesag

oupoffa

me

si

no

the

shaa

xi.itisawo

ldfamouspai

ti

g

单调的重复的古老的旋律，255252121165，55525，555255一声长音，像哭述，小寡妇哭皇天像天书，的英雄故事，国民党与共产党俩女婿的看望丈母娘的喜剧。像长歌，陕北的千年历史在说书匠的嘴里唱出

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oto

ous

epetitio

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gvoice,likec

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heave

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,a

dtheedyofthetwoso

si

lawofthekuomi

ta

ga

dtheu

istpa

tyvisiti

gthei

mothe

i

law.likealo

gso

g,thethousa

dyea

histo

yofno

the

shaa

xiissu

gi

themouthofsto

ytelle

s

半夜三点，说评书的戛然而止

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eeoclocki

themiddleofthe

ight,thesto

ytelli

gstoppedab

uptly

漆黑的年三十，我竟然我处可去任凭两只脚在街上乱走，竟然走到剧团的门前红色的大门紧闭，我已经不是剧团的人了，我不可以回去剧团对面是招待所，门是开着的我径直走了进去，上了二楼，像蜘蛛一样从门上扒上去，剧团练了八年的功夫今晚用上了一只手把室内的烟囱挪到墙角，把门上的小窗子打开，像一条蛇一样溜下去，把房门打开了悄悄睡在温暖的不要钱的床上紧张的不能呼吸在恐惧中睡去。第二天一大早，服务员进来了，她是一脸的疑惑，看看我，看看窗子我昨晚已经把烟囱放回原处了她就像是发现了外星人一样，看看我，走了没有一句话也许，说了，我这个外星人也听不懂

o

theda

k

ewyea

seve,ica

goa

ywhe

elettwofeetwalki

thest

eet,eve

walktothetheate

pa

ysdoo

the

edgateisclosed.im

olo

ge

amembe

ofthet

oupe.ica

tgobackoppositethet

oupeistheguesthouse,thedoo

isope

iwe

tst

aighti

a

dwe

tuptotheseco

dfloo

.ipickeditupf

omthedoo

likeaspide

.thet

oupep

acticedeightyea

sofku

gfua

duseditto

ighto

eha

dmovedthechim

eytotheco

e

ofthe

oom,ope

edtheallwi

dowo

thedoo

,sliddow

likeas

ake,a

dope

edthedoo

quietlysleepi

thewa

mbedwithoutmo

eyimtoo

e

voustob

eathesleepi

fea

.the

extmo

i

g,thewaite

camei

,sheisafaceofdoubt,lookatme,lookatthewi

dowiputthechim

eybacklast

ightitslikeshefou

da

alie

.lookatme.letsgonotawo

dpe

haps,said,ithisalie

alsoca

tu

de

sta

d

大年初一，我用我仅有的钱八毛钱，买了去旦八的汽车票。是卡车，全程立定的站票到了我文化站的窑洞，窑洞里有我的大衣柜，我80块钱卖了，用这个钱，杨帆远航，再次复读美术，准备下次，准备最后一次考大学。

o

thefi

stdayofthe

ewyea

sday,iusedmyo

lymo

eyof80ce

tstobuyabustickettoda

ba.itsat

uck,sta

di

gticketfo

thewholejou

eywhe

ia

ivedattheycultu

alstatio

,the

ewasmybigwa

d

obei

thecave.isolditfo

80yua

.withthismo

ey,ya

gfa

sailedfa

awaya

dstudiedfi

ea

tsagai

,p

epa

i

gfo

the

exta

dfi

alcollegee

t

a

ceexami

atio

.

惊魂的一个过年，我竟然这样过了

ath

illi

g

ewyea

sday,ishouldhavelivedlikethis

预示我惊魂的一生

fo

etellmylifeofte

o